Prompt 8: The Month of May.

Here's a list of 40 of the random (and very unimportant) things that happened to me this month!

1) I fell while getting inducted into Mu Alpha Theta (I'm a ninja).
2) I became very, very close to my mother; I realized that she is super awesome and actually extremely similar to me.
3) My brother started living with my dad and I now see him twice a month.
4) I had developed an insane jealously of Solon High School (Strongsville's lacks $ = no mock trial, science olympiad, MUN).
5) I got hired at Applebee's, but they aren't actually called Applebee's.
6) I went to After-prom with someone I'd never met before (and got judged because of that).
7) I talked to some nice girls and some bitchy girls.
8) I've demonstrated my awesome ninja skills by putting stickers on Mike every biology class and stealing his keys without him knowing! >:).
9) I have become increasingly irritated with the people I'm surrounded by.
10) My mom has spoiled me.
11) I've consecutively bombed 3 AP exams (studying = good; I should look into that).
12) A certain someone has been a VERY BAD influence on me; it's extremely obvious, yet I choose to ignore it.
13) My best friends are concerned because of the above statement and again, I'm ignoring them. 14) I have made it my goal to stop swearing! (at least in front of Igor).
15) I fell in love with everything Russian: the language, the accent and the boyss =P.
16) I got my hair cut by the cutest Korean lady ever :D.
17) I discovered that Psychology is a pointless field to go into and instead, I'm now looking into Engineering!
18) As of now, here is my list of potential universities (top picks first): Princeton, MIT, Cornell, University of Michigan, Emory and it's a long shot, but... Oxford! (the one in the UK).
19) I learned that first impressions are all that matter!
20) I visited my Puopuo (mom's mom) and Uncle Michael in WV. My Grandma gave me some of her clothes... and surprisingly, they don't look too bad on me o_O.
21) I got a French mani and pedi with my mommy =)).
22) I realized that although I appreciate how much my friends care about me, I am irritated by their constant lecturing, judging and goody-goodying.
23) I have eaten just to eat and not because I was hungry.
24) I am attempting to figure out my future; lunch with Dr. Ng will hopefully be very enlightening!
25) I have probably around 100 "Official SAT Questions of the Day" sitting in my inbox that I need to get around to.
26) I discovered that it is extremely difficult (although not impossible) to navigate a computer without a mouse.
27) I have epically failed in physics.
28) I lost my planner =(.
29) I watched Dr. Horrible twice! Once during Calc and once during Bio.
30) I found that apparently, my kind extremely terrifies Google.
31) I was extremely frustrated by my lack of being able to succeed at conjuguemos.
32) I've probably lost large amounts of my life to Facebook.
33) I have stayed up too late for my own good.
34) I've done some stupid/bad/reckless things, but my life is NOT spiraling down, thank you very much.
35) I need to audition for CYWS, but I have yet to being practicing my piece.
36) It's bittersweet; more bad than good, but I'm excited that things are going to change.
37) I played volleyball and loved every second! (even when Igor kicked the ball at my face).
38) I uploaded the best of Taylor Swift and Jesse McCartney onto my iTouch!
39) I just had a very tense and awkward encounter with my soon to be ex-stepdad.
40) I'm doing what I want, whether I have to be contriving or not; get out of my business.

May. This has probably been the funnest, most interesting and most drama-filled month I've ever had. I say fun because it was different. Things are going to change... a lot. Change is good, something I always welcome! =). I've got a lot of things going on and I'm super excited. I might be moving out of Strongsville! :D. I also might be hanging out with a certain someone that may or may not be worth my time (I'm okay with that, it's all about carpe diem-ing and just being spontaneous). And finally, I'm going to Europe in t-3 weeks!

40) This is a little rant to a concerned friend: Thanks for being there, but no thanks. Before I go any farther, I just want you to know that I sincerely appreciate your extensive caring for me. Really, I'm lucky to have you, but there's a limit to how much is too much. I know I make stupid mistakes and bad life choices, but that's just me. The decisions I make are my decisions; I shared them with you not because I want you to criticize me, but because I trusted you to just be there to listen. Clearly, I was wrong. I'm sorry all of my issues have to become "moral dilemmas" for you. I'm sorry you have to carry around my burdens and feel guilty if I screw up. But you know what? You don't have to do any of that. You could just mind your own business and be glad I could confide in you. But now I see that not only do you feel the need to be self-righteous despite what I feel, you also find my life as an exciting source of entertainment. So keep your lectures to yourself and let me learn from my mistakes in peace.

Just another day in May, keep on walking your own way.

Prompt 33: What is fear?

I'm afraid of...

1) Death.
2) Losing something precious to me.
3) Forgetting the past.
4) Failure.
5) Not having enough time.
6) Cancer and other fatal chronic illnesses.
7) Getting my heart broken.
8) Disappointing people.
9) Hurting anything that is capable of feeling.
10) Rejection.
11) Ruining things because I wasn't thinking.
12) Getting busted.
13) Being judged, like a book is by it's cover.
14) Missing something important.
15) Pain.
16) Horror movies.
17) Knowing something bad is going to happen and not being able to stop it.
18) Drifting apart.
19) Being forgotten.
20) Not being accepted for who I am.

I'm scared of a lot of things, but death is at the top of my list. I know that eventually, it won't scare me that much, but right now, I'm completely terrified. What happens after you die? Is it just an eternity of black nothingness? Everything else goes on; other people keep living their lives and the world keeps turning, but your life is over. Sure, people will remember. But as time passes, your impact on others will fade and memories of you will be forgotten. One day, no one will know who you were or what you did. It makes each individual life seem very, very insignificant. That's probably what scares me the most... You live your life well, working hard and striving to become a someone in this world, but in the end, it really doesn't matter. You're just another person. And after you die, you're just another tombstone. Scary, isn't it?

Prompt 109: I miss you.

This is actually supposed to be a letter to someone I feel I need to spend more time with, but I feel this way towards a lot of someones, so instead, it's a bunch of little letters all in one =).

Dear Grandparents,
I love you. You two brought me up as a child and I'll never be able to thank you enough for all the love and support you showed me. I miss you with all my heart. I wish China wasn't so far away... I'd come visit you more often. My dad makes me call you every once in a few weeks and I'm sorry I don't talk much. I know that I'm eventually going to come to regret not spending every free moment I had talking to you. Stay strong and healthy for when I visit again (hopefully next summer). Wo ai ni.

Dear Family,
This one is to all my other aunts, uncles, cousins and anyone else I'm related to (and step-relatives too!). It's a bummer none of you live within a 92837 mile radius of me (minus Michael and Puopuo in WV, and Michael's kids in TX). I miss you! You are all wonderful people and I'm lucky to have you as my family =)). Wo ai ni. Ich liebe dich. I love you.

Dear Andrew,
We've known each other for 3 years and have only met twice. I don't understand why you're so in love with me, but thank you for always being there to talk. You're like the big brother I never had :D. Mahal kita.

Dear Kenny,
Haha, I don't even know what to write. We met through a fluke on Neopets and discovered we had a lot in common. What has it been..? A good 5 years, at the least? Although we went through periods of not talking and now we're both too busy to keep in touch, I miss you. I feel like I can talk to you about anything and I love having a best guy friend to confide in. So thanks! After I get out of school, I'm going to make time to visit you up in British Columbia. It'll be the first time we meet! Weird by normal standards, but we're cool =). Wo ai ni.

Dear Brittany,
Good thing we both love mazes, or we would never've become best friends. Even since 5th grade, our friendship hasn't changed a bit, despite the fact that we hardly ever hang out anymore. We need to make time for each other; I miss you! You're the bestest best friend ever. I love you.

Dear Camp Friends and Cruise Friends,
I've been to a lot of camps/cruises. And during those 10 days I spend with people I don't know, I've made the most amazing friends ever. I miss all of you! You guys are smart, sweet, awesome, accepting and definitely know how to party! And I know we're scattered all across the world, but one day, we will have a massive reunion and it will be epic. Sarang hae. Te amo. J'taime. Mahal na mahal kita. Ya tebya lyublyu. I love you.

I really think I'm just having fun flaunting my ability to say "I love you" in many different languages, but forreal... I miss you guys. We're definitely going to hang out sometime soon =)).

Prompt 40: Annoyances.

Here are some things that annoy me, bother me or in any way make me upset, in no particular order:

1) People who don't accept other people for who they are.
2) Not recycling.
3) People who take a long time to do simple tasks.
4) Hurting animals and killing bugs.
5) Know-it-alls.
6) Snobby, arrogant, shallow, ignorant, rude, selfish, obnoxious, egotistic, etc. people... who think they are awesome.
7) Unprovoked unhappiness or pessimism.
8) Writing things in text lingo.
9) Being judgmental, especially when you don't know what you're talking about.
10) Boys being so hard to figure out and boys who like you, not for who you are, but for what you look like.
11) Not straight teeth and unflawless skin.
12) Impoliteness.
13) People who dislike things just because.
14) Things that aren't just the way I like them (little bit OCD right there).
15) Fake girls that cake their face in makeup.
16) People that don't talk or even make an effort to hold a conversation.
17) How unsophisticated the people in modern society are (minus a select few).
18) How 6) is the only sentence to be more than one line.
19) Extreme persistence for not very exciting things.
20) People who don't finish their food.

There are a lot of things that bother me. I know this makes me sound OCD and annoyed really easily, but it's true. For all of them, however, keep in mind that it ultimately depends on the situation. I'm going to go ahead and elaborate on number 17.

Whatever happened to holding open doors, pulling out chairs and other gentleman-like actions? It seems that chivalry is lost these days. I can't help but to wonder... Do guys actually think wearing their pants low and walking with a swag will impress girls? Not all of us are into the egotistical jock type. Hardly any of us think you're immature innuendo is funny. Would it kill you to act like a real man and treat girls like they're meant to be treated? Granted, us girls aren't doing a lot to help... As time goes on, girls are getting trashier and trashier, younger and younger. It's kinda sad.

I have noticed some exceptions though. Generally, I find that most foreigners, namely Europeans and Asians tend to be rather decent. Usually, Asians aren't capable of sexual innuendo or dirty remarks. They certainly don't know how to walk with their pants halfway down. And Europeans. Ahh, they are just wonderful, aren't they? Now, by Europeans, I don't mean the guy who's "a quarter German on their grandpa's side." I mean guys who are either from a European country or are really tight with their native country. Mostly every foreign guy I've met is a gentleman. Maybe it's the way they're brought up? Maybe it's just compared to all the guys here. But some boys could sure learn a thing or two...

Just some food for thought =).